Galleria Domain Xmas Party
Chicago,  December 1999

(This was originally posted on in the 'Leash' forum of www.TPE.com)

My recent trip to DC for BR '99 really had me flying.for quite a while after I got home.  As I was reading some of my e-mail
shortly after that trip that I noticed the club I had started calling my Chicago home had scheduled a members XMAS party
for Dec 11th.  I thought this would be a good time to show off my 'new' self-confidence and maybe make contact with some
folks I had been corresponding with recently from there.

As usual though, I couldn't let myself just do a one-day trip up there.  So I went early on Friday and stayed until Sunday
afternoon.  This allowed me plenty of time for shopping, visiting with some scene friends, and relaxing a bit, besides
going to the club both nights I was up there.  I had made an appointment to treat myself to a nice makeover for the
Saturday's party, but for Friday night, I got brave and fixed my own makeup.  My outfit to start Friday night out was a simple
long sleeve cotton blouse and denim skirt, short heeled back flats and a lighter style makeup than I had worn on the town in
the past.  Just in case a sexier look was needed later I also packed my new crinoline and thigh high boots in my toy bag.

Arriving at the club, I found to my delight a couple of other CD's there and some of the folks I had met on my first visits to
the club. I was also immediately introduced to Ms Donna (also known by LashDomme), a local Domme with an interest
in CD's.  Sissy Blueballs Fellatrix had mentioned Ms. Donna's name to me several months at a party back east and it was
great to finally meet her.  As we talked I found we had many common interests in and out of the scene, and we seemed to
have hit it off quite nicely.  I think she will be a real friend as I make more trips to Chicago.

One interesting part of my conversation with Ms. Donna centered on her dislike of a common practice of many CD's.  She
felt too many of us 'girls' take on a sluttish or extreme fetish look that is not always appropriate for the location
or situation.  She liked the more relaxed, normal feeme look I had adapted for that evening.  She also seemed to like my
attitude towards 'play' and my new found strength in letting both side of 'me' come out in 'play' and while dressed.

Later that evening I ended up disrobing, actually at the urging of Ms. Donna and Tina, the club's CD hostess.  We were
discussing corset styles for CD's and they wanted to show a new CD that was there the style corset I was wearing that
evening.  With my new way of thinking about things, it took nothing for me to strip down to my corset, bra, panties and
stockings.  (Things sure have changed, haven't they!)

After that impromptu demo and discussion, I put on my crinoline and thigh-high boots.  This made it easier when the
subject of the KTB came up and I was asked to show it in use.  Several of the Domme's present that night showed a
lot of interest in that 'nasty' little toy and I enjoyed showing it off (now don't go reading into that comment
folks)!  Later that evening, Tina asked me if I would take part in a future discussion at the club and talk about the KTB.
Of course I eagerly agreed to that!

Saturday morning I gave myself a treat and spent the morning relaxing for a change.  After a nice lunch and walk around
a local mall, I was off to Transformations by Rori, in Oak Park.  The night before I had done my own hair and makeup,
which I am fairly comfortable doing finally.  This is largely due to Rori's encouragement and instruction over the past year
or so.  Her salon and boutique is awesome and a haven for many of the Chicago girls.  Being it was the holidays and all
kinds of special events were happening, there were at least 10 to 15 other girls floating around the salon getting ready for
an evening out also.  Rori provides changing space for the Chicago and out of town girls, besides her transformation and
boutique services.  Preparing for my evening out amongst those lovely sisters added to my fun and experience.

My outfit for the evening was a black, stretchy material blouse and skirt combination.  The blouse has a sheer upper panel
that comes to just above the bust.  The shirt is floor length, with slits all the way up both sides to the hips.  With this I wore
my long satin corset and 5" stiletto heels.  Rori did my makeup in a very dramatic, evening look that received great
comments later in the evening.  Ms. Donna, who was one of the first persons I saw when I got to Galleria Domain
commented approvingly on my choice of an appropriate outfit for the evening.  This pleased me, since I am trying more
than ever to be more in tune with how I dress for specific events.  Hers was the first of many great comments throughout
the evening.

Not long after I arrived, I saw the Domme, Ms. Carol, who I had spoken to at BR 99 and went over to re-introduce myself.
Since I had been in my 'boy-drag' mode when we met in D.C., I knew she didn't recognize as I approached her.  After
reminding her of our meeting the previous month, she immediately remembered me, gave a big hug and immediately
began introducing to her friends, as well other Dom/mes and subs.  From that point I has plenty of folks to talk to that
evening. From that first response from the folks at Galleria Domain, I don't think I'll have a problem making friends and
maybe even finding a 'play' partner soon.

Also during the evening I was again asked to 'show-off' my KTB.  Instead of taking it off after folks had seen it and had asked
their questions, I kept it on for the rest of the evening.  I was starting to get a little 'frisky' and figured the KTB would help me
'behave'.  With the cut of the skirt I was wearing, I could wear the KTB without it being to 'obvious'.  It was interesting wearing
it for such a long period, while watching all the fun stuff around me!

One of my reasons for wearing the KTB that evening was to remind me that before I start playing at Galleria Domain or
even playing again back east with my TPE friends, Ms. J must give her blessing to any play and who I play with.  This was
because of the incident at the other Chicago Club back in March '99, where my tush was 'cut' by a bullwhip during a rather
upsetting scene.  We had agreed that I wouldn't play until we had worked out a few 'issues'.  While at this party, I ran into the
'top' that had been responsible for that scene.  Although the conversation was awkward at first, by the end of it I had finally
gotten closure on that incident.  I believe for his comments that he did also.  Having now discussed this with Ms. J, I now
have her permission to search out some play on future trips up north.

This trip up north really served as a new 'beginning' for me.  Combined with my experiences at BR '99, I've found a new
confidence in shedding my 'security blanket' (my femme clothes, but not my femme mindset or persona).  The ability to
include 'all' of me in play and my prancing around is like a newfound sense of freedom.  I have finally begun experiencing
many of the feelings I knew I was missing out on.  I do still find a bit scary to have males observing my boy-thing, but at the
same time I have found I am becoming a bit of a tease, even with 'it' exposed.  Also, the acceptance I felt at yet another 'play'
venue also reinforced that new feeling of confidence.  The feelings and emotions this all brings to me are still floating
through my alleged mind.  In time hopefully I will deal with them appropriately, but they are not causing the panic they
once did.

During the whole weekend at Galleria Domain, but especially the second night, I felt new strength in the person I have
become as 'Elita'!  I had no problem walking in public 'en femme' anywhere, which is a far cry from scurrying to and from a
place and/or my car, trying to hide who/what I was/am.   I actually enjoyed a guy I passed in the parking lot of my motel,
comment on my legs and short shirt, flirting with him with my movements.  Damn I can't believe I did that, ever as I write
this now!  I also found a new sense of strength from the way genetic women (GGs) accept me and seem to be sizing me
up for
future activities.

Why do I include these comments here?  Because without my friends at TPE none of this would have happened!  I recently
discovered, as I looked over the time since joined TPE on-line over four years ago, one person in particular has strongly
influenced my growth and progress.  To Ms. Kitten I will always owe a debt of gratitude that will be hard to repay.  Thank you
Ms. Kitten for all your time and support.  Thanks also must be given to Sparkle, Teleria, Cleo, DKX, Knight, Imp and the
many others that kept encouraging me to succeed in my quests.  Without your support and patience, 'Elita' would definitely
still be in the closet of my mind, instead a real, growing person on her own accord, going far forward from that first time in
Albuquerque five years ago.  Thank you all for that.

Huggggggggggggggggles,

    Elita